Saturday, March 19, 2016
It's been a while since I've checked into this blog. Just haven't felt like my creative self in, oh, the past couple of years, really. I'm no longer a "single" mom — moved in with my partner Lloyd a little over a year ago. I now reside in beautiful Santa Barbara, a whole different kind of Paradise than foresty Cambria ... palm trees and all! I imagined a picture-perfect existence in SB ... I'd finally be with my man 24/7 while making a decent paycheck (for a change) at a job I landed before I moved south. But the job turned out to be not so great and I found myself desperately looking for a way out. Worst of all, I lost my dear sister/best friend — a victim of a tragic circumstance (see previous blog entry). To say her death was the most horrifying shock of my life would be a huge understatement.
I needed to take a breather and simplify my life. I somehow landed a part-time job as an administrative assistant to the marketing director of our local community college — the same school my daughter attends. The position is perfect for me! (My sister would've called this a "God thing.") So my recent days have consisted of work in the morning, walking the dog (I forgot to tell you we got the cutest Pug puppy!), napping, and cooking for my man. With my part time schedule, I'd have lots of time to write, I told myself ... which of course, I haven't done! But that's OK.
Apparently, when you go though large doses of life changes and tragedies, you need a good amount of veg time to let it all sink in — at least I do. I'm thankful for afternoon naps, a rambunctious puppy, and a supportive man in my life. Oh, and great new friends and coworkers! Because of their healing powers I find myself crying less, smiling more, and better able to see myself as a competent, creative soul. Or maybe I'm just hearing my sister's voice telling me I am!
I've been offered a full-time position at work and I've decided to take it. I am ready.